Fake It Till You Make It ?

I am trying to cut out coffee for a few days to see if it helps with my acid reflux problems. Today is my second day, and yesterday I still had terrible reflux all afternoon. Not even Tums helped. So I’m kinda feeling like it’s pointless so far.

Which makes it super hard to abstain when it’s 10:20am and I’m still dragging myself around as if I were woken up from a dead sleep. Which I was, but it was, like, 4 hours ago. I should be peppy by now, after my lemon water (whatever, all you health nuts, it’s not the same as coffee), nutritious breakfast, and hot shower.

Being tired also makes it hard to think clearly in my interactions with Adler. So far I haven’t had any yelling incidents since last Thursday, but I have snapped a little, which is kind of like a gateway drug to yelling. So I’m trying to figure out how to obtain both my health goals (no reflux) and my relationship goals (The Orange Rhino’s challenge to Yell Less, Love More). Tiredness/lack of clear thinking is a trigger for me.

I’ve tried to fake it all morning, but have yet to get to the “make it” part. Suggestions for coping with caffeine loss, as well as encouragement as to when I may feel better, are welcome.