If you know Adler at all, you know that his love tank requires words of affirmation and quality time. Lots of it. Preferably all your time, attention, and energy, please and thank you. He does not enjoy being alone, playing alone, or doing things alone. Before Maddox, this was fine. He helped me with any tasks he could, and we played together. The end.
Enter a baby. We had prepared for this transition by requiring both formal independent play and spontaneous independent play, but I was unprepared for how much I would have to split my time. At first, it was easy with Maddox. Eat, sleep, poop, repeat. But as he got older, he developed an opinion and awareness of his surroundings. I have to feed him in a quiet, dark room, or the feeding becomes unproductive and frustrating. That takes up time, time that I used to spend with Adler, even if he was playing at my feet while I nursed on the couch. Maddox also requires quality time now, apart from holding him while he sleeps or stares.
Adler’s behavior directly correlates with the time he spends with us (me). I didn’t realize it for a long time, but as I’ve begun to work on my own responses to frustration, I have noticed that he is happier, more cooperative, and more content when he gets regular slots of time devoted to playing with me. He also LOVES predictability and order, and knowing “the plan.” It probably goes without saying that he is not a big fan of the plan changing last-minute.
After observing his need to play with me and knowing his love for plans, I made a simple daily schedule for us to follow. I have tried this before, but I always made it too complicated and didn’t stick with it. I would make a different outline for each day of the week, accounting for things like grocery shopping, library day, etc. But I decided that, since I’m NOT a huge schedule follower, if this is going to work, it has to be simple. So I made a routine that goes by half-hour to hour-long blocks of time for the whole day. If we are home, we will follow it, if we’re out, we will just skip whatever activities we normally do at home during the time we are out. I pulled ClipArt pictures off Google and made them as little icons to put next to each item on the routine, so Adler can have a visual of the activity. Super official. So professional looking, in fact, that I don’t want to share it for fear of making others feel inferior to my mad Googling/cutting/pasting abilities.
After completing the routine, I put off actually implementing it for a few days, knowing that once I told him what was happening, there was no turning back. And boy, was I right. We started last Monday. I showed him the schedule and he was elated. I walked through each item with him once: Wake up, breakfast and chores, independent play, play with Mommy, room time, read with Mommy, etc. He was so excited and all day, he kept going back to the schedule and asking me what was next. I had to remind him to stay “in the moment” and not keep trying to move ahead too fast.
The next morning, he went to the fridge and looked at the schedule. Pointing to each icon, he named what it was, in order, without making any mistakes. This kid’s photographic memory never ceases to amaze me. As he was naming them, he said, “…play by myself, play with mommy – that’s my favorite one…” I knew instantly that my gut was right about what he needed. Order and a clear time of when I would play with him. I made our block of time playing together to begin directly after Maddox’s nap starts, so there are no interruptions. I try my hardest not to do any chores or other things during this time.
We did our schedule most days last week, and it was a hit! It’s still hard for me to stick to it, but it’s good for both of us. I bring the flexibility – “It’s OK that its 10:00 and we are still reading, we don’t have to start each activity at exactly the right time.” He brings the discipline – “Mommy, what does our schedule say? OK, let’s do it!” We have found a balance, though, and it seems to be working.
He has stopped incessantly begging me to play with him at all times, even if I just played with him for a long time. He knows what to expect, and if I’m busy, I can refer him to the schedule to see what is supposed to be happening at any given time. Instead of saying, “no, I can’t right now,” or, “I can in a little bit,” or, “don’t ask me to play again, I’ve already told you I can’t,” I get to say, “right now is play time by yourself. In 30 minutes, it’s time for us to play together.” He knows that I’m not avoiding playing with him, and he also knows when I will be able to devote time to him.
He has also stopped having such a bad attitude and acting out. Not that these things have been fixed by any means, but devoting time each day to playing with him has helped in these areas.
All this has helped with my anger, as well. I don’t get so frustrated by the incessant begging to play, no matter how many times I explain that I can’t but will “soon.” I don’t get so tired of the whining and acting out, because it has lessened. I have learned that I do, in fact, enjoy the schedule and predictability, as well, as it helps me organize my day. I am able to get tasks fully completed because I know I have a set amount of time to do it.
Overall, this change in our house has been very positive. Adler has three scheduled independent play times throughout the day, two scheduled times to play with me, one scheduled reading session with me, and one scheduled time to play with Daddy after dinner. All of this togetherness and clear, defined alone time has been really good for him.
I’m so glad I was able to finally stop the madness, recognize what was going on, and find a solution that seems to be working! Hopefully we can continue working with our schedule. I’m sure we will change it as we discover what works for us and what is too much. I will just have to make sure to prepare Adler for any changes, or the whole thing will fall apart! :-)